I had a phone conversation a few days ago that opened up a whole new world for me. I want to encourage all of us who follow Jesus that he does his best work in the mundane. We always expect this grand thing or event but as we CONSISTENTLY pursue him we then experience moments with him that change our lives. I had been praying that the Lord reveal some things to me and oh boy he did!
A normal phone call with a friend and him sharing what his mentor shared with him and then the tears flooded, the mind started racing and the heart began to pour out. I’ve been through a lot in my life. I literally can, and will, write a book about it. I don’t share everything on social media and a lot of my suffering is unknown to even those close to me.
Traumas back to back and grief back to back can allow bitterness to creep in. I had been carrying that around for decades. It affected everything. I felt heavy, a lot. I would have moments with God and people but still daily felt, heavy. My friend shared these words about grumbling, complaining, and gratitude. It instantly hit my heart. It was like the word I had been waiting for. I wept and confessed to him on the phone. I confessed and prayed to God. I immediately felt lighter. Now I am in the process of mapping this out through my whole journey and looking forward to this next season of life in light of this revelation.
In the words of Paul Tripp, we can be “trouble meditating” or “problem meditating” people and that be the habit of our heart or we can be people who experience the troubles of this world and be real about it yet filter it through the stunning beauty of our Lord. We aren’t called to be aloof but we are called to be grateful. I want to type so much more but I’ll leave all that here and will unpack more in a future post. I have been journaling a lot and letting God process it in me. Pray for me as I journey on.
Until next time
Demetrius